Helping Daughter Open up Their Own Doors

Helping Daughter Open Up Their Own Doors, that small daughter that lives deep down inside. Hiding, silent but still there. Will you open the door welcome her into your world. Let her feel your peace, hope and love.

Women Dream Weavers

Dreaming of a better day, knowing that it is there. Following your path? Today is a new day of beginnings. You have walked thru the door of hope it is leading you to what is calling YOU. Remembering that loving yourself first, healing and in gratitude we pass that hope along to those in front of us who will one day stand along side of us as a sister, a dream weaver.

What does your dream dance look like ? What energy are you putting out there?

I have so many dreams, stories and doors I want to open. Women dream weavers are clearing a path for all of us they are opening the doors and dreaming to make dreams happen for all of us. I am a dream weaver.

We all need to be dream weavers. Weaving in the love, empowering balance to every day situations. Life is a tear drop away and regret, sadness and  guilt be dissolved with the forgiveness that others would say you are crazy, unacceptable.

We will be free, released from the pain, lies and letting go. Loving ourselves enough to go thru the door of hope.  Going forward thru love, we are not helpless. We are free, and healed all is well. Safe in the creators arms. Moving on to be what ever we want to be, free. Dreaming , weaving a magnificent tapestry of our life. 

Prisms of Me, Awakening

Blank sheets of paper, so many thoughts will I get them out fast enough before I forget them then other times there is nothing. Then I might hear a word or see something and I see a story. Its like magic. How does it happen? Why does it happen? It is like I have to write it down or a treasure is buried again waiting for someone else to find it. Word that need to be said, stories that need to be told.

 Fantasy, mothers' dreams, dancing and our passion makes us transcend into a different world, stepping into the many prisms of our soul. Prisms of me, awakening, shining, they want to be read, sung, shared with others to help them find their blank sheet to write on, draw on; creating their magic.

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Me at 6 years old 

            Be.You.tiful Woman have a wonderful day.

Frozen Kingdom of Isolation

Fantasy is fun, playing and dreaming. One day we need to start acting on what are dreams are. Mine are writing, helping women and healing myself along the way from the inside out.

I have a box of photos sitting on the table, frozen in time. We often look thru them they are the happy, fun times I remember with my family. Wondering what dreams I personally have and if I will ever get out of those boxes and really be who I need to be, to be?

Reflecting on the memories I have as a young woman, mother and now grandmother I am making memories for the ones that fall in my shadow silently. Making collages hoping that one day they will see me. More than a woman who is physically sick, mentally sick of all the things in my life, things that have gone haywire. Sucking back on wine, popping pills and waking up with headaches the next day; the cycle just continues. I am not where I use to be but sometimes I worry that it is escalating again.

The secret lives we live, putting on the face our masks, isolating and smiling acting like nothing is wrong. Masking the pain in my body, relationships with family and friends; where are you? No one calls, have you forgotten me? 

Do you know who I am? I don't.

Where do I go? Here; there is no face there staring back at me, no one to judge me but me! I do. Right now I am lost and confused about my life. Moving in many directions but stagnant. How is that possible?

It is so quiet at times but my mind is going crazy. I am questioning myself, angry with life dealing me this pain, and situations; should of come out of. The shadow I am in of my parents, following me and is hovering over my children. I need to be strong, I am strong. This moment I am weak, I am weak. I dream, I am a dreamer, I hope, I have hope. I believe, I am believing, I cry, I am crying.

Where do I go? You are there silently, a spirit that may feel what I am feeling, frozen. The mirror in front of me is of a woman who is weak then strong, dreams, hopes and believes while crying. Moment by moment, drawn closer to who I really am; stepping from one thought into another, day into another day.

The new photos of me looks back at me and I see a tired, older woman, pretty, overweight but still creating moments. Moments of happiness, memories to remember and I know things have to get better. I see it in the smiles of my family and friends, in my cat Sara who comes to me because she needs to be loved and patted. She comes up here to me and tells me when she needs something, when she is tired or wants to go outside. She has her voice. Sagwa is quiet and hardly comes out, he is content sitting under the curtain by the window or under my blanket, hiding. I often forget he hides there and sometimes only see him once a day.

Being content with what is going on in my life, not expecting and enjoying what happens is what I have been doing. Like those before me; not expecting for more. 

Where is our wonder, our destiny?

 I see it in the children in their excitement. "Rainbow flakes, that is what the cereal box says grandma." Checking to see if there was a Rainbow flakes Facebook link I checked and there was Frozen the Disney Movie; a story about sisters and being frozen. 

https://www.facebook.com/rainbow.flakes?fref=ts


"I don't care what they are going to say", time to see what I can do", I'm free, let it go", " that perfect girl is gone" quotes from Disney's Frozen. Wonderful words, movie for young children, inspiring, empowering.

More words we need to say 

" Don't let them in, don't let them see
Be the good girl you always have to be
Conceal, don't feel, don't let them know
Well, now they know
Let it go, let it go
Can't hold it back anymore
Let it go, let it go
Turn away and slam the door"

http://disney.wikia.com/wiki/Let_it_Go

I slam the door to all that binds me, that hurts me, that make me feel less than I am. This shadow I carry with me is going to be lifted. I am not going to let it follow me on to those I love.
 
Time to see what I can do, I am letting go

I will cry, it may hurt but I am letting go of the lies, the stories, the anger in me. Living in the kingdom of isolation I am alive, I am here, I stand, I am not frozen, I am alive.



Look inside, who are you? 
What is on the outside will all change. 

Look at the photo albums you have, pulled out a picture of you from 10 years ago, 20 years ago, 30 years ago, and 50 years ago.

Who are you?


You are Be.You.tiful, take care of you.

Be Woman a Skyscaper

 photo-clipart from Microsoft Word

Be woman, be bold, beautiful inside-out, better than you were yesterday, blessed to bless others, blissful and blossom into the woman you need to be.


 Working thru the baggage we keep holding on. I imagine removing the bags and suitcases, of pain, fears, anger, loss and walking thru this path onto the other side into a beautiful garden with you my friend. Enjoying the fragrance of a new life, dreams and respecting, loving and forgiving myself just as I am, working each day to be the healthiest, strongest and boldest woman and blossom.


Take time to listen to Skyscraper by Demi Lovato, I like to read and sing the words. 
Feel your power. The sky is the limit.

Demi Lovato - Skyscraper Lyrics